YouTube Videos: Eating Disorders Awareness Week 2017

This Eating Disorders Awareness Week you may want to check out the following videos:

Firstly there is a talk about anorexia nervosa. It was performed at Ignite Cardiff and is titled ‘pro ana?! Pro life!’ It is about the realities of living with an eating disorder compared to the idealised views of the pro-anorexia community. It is also about overcoming eating disorders and sends the message out that ‘life can change in a minute.’ You can watch the talk here

Next we have a video about being sectioned for an eating disorder. It was created with Fixers, a U.K. charity and was brought about after seeing a comment on social media saying, “I want to be sectioned so that I can have a hug whenever I’m sad.” You can watch the video here

Finally we have a TV programme called ‘The Feel Happy Fix’ which was recorded live from the ITV studios by Fixers UK. It’s a programme that focuses on young people’s mental health in general but many of the young panelists have personal experience of an eating disorder. You can watch it here

 

Ways You Can Get Involved This Eating Disorders Awareness Week

There are plenty of ways you can get involved in Eating Disorders Awareness Week 2017. You could blog, vlog, tweet, Facebook and instagram to raise awareness of eating disorders using the hashtag #EDAW2017

You can learn more about eating disorders on B-eat’s website and you can donate to B-eat here

On Friday 3rd March it is Sock It To Eating Disorders Day where people don their silly socks in order to raise awareness for eating disorders. You can buy your socks direct from B-eat here

So this year, put on your silly socks, get the conversations about eating disorders flowing and donate to help change and save the lives of those affected by eating disorders.

Sock It To Eating Disorders 2017

Eating disorder awareness week is fast approaching and this year the focus is on early intervention. Eating disorder week is from the 27th February to the 5th of March and Sock It To Eating Disorders Day is Friday 3rd of March. You can order your socks from Beat the eating disorder charity here

I will be blogging throughout the week and of course I’ll be wearing my Beat socks, don’t forget to use the hashtag #SockItSelfie

I’m going to try and get the nurses to join in and wear their silly socks. I will find a way to raise awareness even if it is from my hospital bed. In previous years I’ve climbed mountains for Beat but this year I’ll do my best in the situation I am in.

You can donate to Beat here

climbED: Climbing The Mountain To Recovery

Today is the day that my best friend and I climb a mountain to raise money for b-eat. I wanted to climb a mountain because it felt very fitting as recovery from anorexia nervosa has often felt like climbing a mountain and now I will explain why.

When you first start climbing a mountain you can’t always see the top, you might be able to see a third of the mountain, half at the most. Mist will stop you from seeing the pinnacle. Because you can’t see the top, you can’t imagine what it’s like up there, you can’t vision it and it seems unreachable. You begin to doubt that you can get there. At the beginning of recovery it felt like that for me and it still does. I can’t imagine what a ‘recovered life’ looks like, I often wonder about it. What would my life look like? What would I eat? How would I feel? I can’t remember what life was like without anorexia and there are days that I doubt I can reach recovery because it is so far away. There’s so much to overcome and climb before I get there but that doesn’t make it impossible.

Climbing a mountain involves a lot of walking and can take a long time, the same as recovery includes a lot of meals, a lot of therapy and a lot of trust and takes a long time, you may stumble and slip down the mountain a but you aren’t at the bottom again. You are still on the mountain even if it feels like you’re struggling. You might have relapsed but you are not stood back in the car park, you are still somewhere on the mountain to recovery.

I don’t know many people that have recovered from anorexia and aside from the people I know online I don’t know many people who have an eating disorder besides myself which often makes me feel quite alone in recovery. On the days I’m consumed by self-doubt I find it hard to believe I will ever recover because it feels like I am the only one on this journey. Not everyone climbs a mountain in their lifetime. I don’t know many people who have climbed mountains and knowing that a lot of people don’t do it can make it feel like an impossible task. People don’t climb mountains because it takes energy, endurance, motivation and determination, that can make it feel impossible but it isn’t.

When climbing a mountain you will get tired and you will get breathless. You will have to take regular breaks, sit down for five minutes and get your breath back before you carry on. Recovery is similar, you will struggle to go right from the bottom to the top in the quickest way possible. You have to take things at your own pace and you might need to hold things steady for a while before you carry on up the mountain. Recovery is about you and you have to make sure you can manage the stage you are at in recovery.

There may be hiccups in the mountain climb, a tree blocking a path meaning you have to turn around and go another way or ice that slows you down or makes you slip. Recovery will not always be perfect, you will slip up and have blips but that’s okay. I can guarantee you that it won’t be a perfect straight line from illness to health. You may have to re-trace your steps and go over the same thing a few times, you may fall and binge or restrict but you haven’t failed. Just keep trying, part of recovery is accepting that there are imperfections and mistakes do happen.

It may feel too difficult at times, the cold wind blowing in your face and your whole body feels exhausted and you just want to give up. When climbing a mountain it feels hardest the nearer you get to the top, the weather worsens and the temperature drops and it can feel hard to breathe but you have to keep going because the peak of the mountain is just around the corner. Recovery can feel impossible at times, you might feel exhausted and want to give up and stop trying but it could feel difficult because you are nearly there. Hold on tight, health and happiness is around the corner.

Walking down the other side of a mountain is so much easier than climbing up it. You will feel amazing because of what you have achieved. You’ll feel free and run down the steep drops. Recovery is difficult and really hard work but once you’ve reached the other side it will feel amazing. One day it will be easier. You can climb the mountain to recovery and live a freer, healthier and happier life.

Here’s today’s sock it to eating disorders silly socks photo:

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Today is Sock It To Eating Disorders Day, wear your silliest socks and tell the world that eating disorders can be beaten.

To find out more about our mountain climb and to donate please visit: http://www.justgiving.com/climbED

climbED: I’d Rather Have A Bowl Of Coco Pops

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than feel the bone aching cold that I feel. It’s not cold like most people feel, it’s the cold that makes you feel as though your bones are those plastic ice packs and your blood is slowing down and slowly freezing. Your skin feels funny with cold, you can’t feel the flesh around your mouth, your face is numb and a mixture of red and grey and blue. It’s as if you will never be warm again. It’s the cold that a hat and scarf can’t fix.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than the bruises on my hips. The bruises from your bathtub, you tried to have a bath to get warm but ended up tossing and turning because your bones pressed into the plastic and with no padding it’s agony. The bruises from your bed where your mattress presses against raw bone. It hurts. Everything you do hurts.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than exercise until I’m crying with pain and exhaustion. You can’t stop, the voice in your head won’t let you and it will reel off a thousand reasons why you can’t stop: ‘the number on the scales, something bad will happen, what will you do when you stop exercising?’ It will go on and on and on at you and you can’t stop it. You’ll carry on weak and exhausted with tears rolling down your cheeks.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than lay on the bathroom floor biting on a towel to try and cope with the pain of my laxative addiction. You’re too scared to stop but you’re also too scared to carry on, the more you take, the more you need and you can barely afford to keep buying them. Everyday you worry the pharmacist will refuse, you have a plan A, B, C and D because you need these little yellow pills. You don’t sleep anymore, you’ve timed it so precisely. The pain is the worst you’ve ever felt and sometimes you fear you’re going to die from it. You don’t know how to stop. You are trapped.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than see my mum in tears as I lay in a hospital bed. Nothing feels worse than seeing the woman who gave birth to you and taught you all you know crying and knowing that those tears are because of you. No mother should have to watch her child die.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than have blood stained socks from speed walking and not being able to stop myself. You’re walking down the street at top speed. You worry people are staring at you, that they know you’re secret. Your shoes and tights are rubbing against your heels, you can feel the wetness of your blood on your heels. You can’t stop. You turn the music up and push your earphones into your ears as tight as you can. Breathless you walk faster and faster and faster. Exhausted but you can’t stop.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than obsess over food all day. You go on your phone to stare at pictures of food, obsess over recipe books and watch the cooking channel all day. You rarely eat food but you spend every waking hour thinking about it and looking at it. It will drive you insane. You think of nothing else. You can’t concentrate on anything else. Food food food food food.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than a body that doesn’t function properly, particularly in the bladder department. You constantly need to go to the toilet because all your muscles have weakened and your bladder can barely hold any fluid. You will worry constantly about where the bathroom is and spend your day walking to and from it. Service stations are your best friend.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than miss out on making memories with the people around me. Your friends and family all love you but your eating disorder convinces you that they are the enemy, they hate you, they’d be better off without you. Mix that with the exhaustion your eating disorder leaves you with and you’ve got a very boring and lonely life to live. You are watching the clock ticking, your life is being wasted and it will eat you up inside.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than sit on the kitchen floor shoveling food into my mouth. You will eat without tasting as your body forces you to binge instead of die. You will bites your cheeks and scratch your throat with food. You aren’t enjoying it but you can’t stop. Your body won’t let you stop. Guilt overwhelms you afterwards, the fat, the calories, the weight gain and the money your mother spent on that food. You want to tear your skin off. You will scream through tears, “Please let this be a nightmare, please let me wake up.”

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than stand in front of a mirror pinching my naked body. You stand there pinching your thighs and your stomach. Body checking will drive you insane. You will feel like you are thin, fat and healthy all in the same day. You’re caught up in the confusion of it all. You won’t even know who you are anymore.

I’d rather have a bowl of coco pops than lose my life to anorexia.

Here’s today’s sock it to eating disorders silly socks photo:

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To find out more about our mountain climb and to donate please visit: http://www.justgiving.com/climbED